lolz i know it's really strange that i suddenly blog so many at one go. but yea i'm kinda like in my emo-hi-lo instead of the passive straight line thingie.
but yea today at cat class, i think i made a difference. as in ok, i probably have been making a difference with just my presence alone. but yea this time felt... dono think what i shared left an impact.
it was kind of a godsend moreover... or should i say God-send. just last night i was like in a total turmoil i felt sooo frustrated and irritated and confused. and lolz think i felt quite desperate. desperate enough to pray for help. and then today for cat class, we went to the anthony's house. for the closing prayer, we went to a small room upstairs - the same room that anthony invited us to share our prayers when we were sec 3. that same symbolic room. and again (kinda expected it already due to the deja-vu-ness of the situation here), he asked us to share our prayers. perhaps it was the atmosphere, ok not perhaps... it was definitely the atmosphere. but yea people started sharing prayers. i knew deep inside that i was probably being asked to share also... moreover with a stronger commitment of being a youth helper. and i was just helplessly wondering how to share something so. intricate. and complex. how can i put it all into words. lolz but i ended up saying a prayer anyway, sharing that i had a trying week "which would take too long to share".
i thought that'd be the end of it. so much for that. but after e prayer was over, anthony prompted me to share what i said "would take too long". and so i just talked a bit about what i've been feeling, sharing some past experiences. stuff like the band outing, and the gep reunion. and yea in that sharing i think i reached past their usual uncaring selves. i think i showed that i was more like them than they thought and i think... yea i just thought that somehow, somewhere, though i don't really know how and what, i made a difference :)
that knowledge didn't come with pride, happiness, or... yea i think pride would be what i thought i would have felt. but instead, all i got was a sense of peace. an inner calm to cool my seething turmoil. something that lifted me out of the well i was drowning in.
lolz reading the post to myself... it seems so fictional and overhyped. but it's not.
after cat class, we stayed for lunch and hung around, talking, mixing around. and :) i'm so happy for this time spent together. there's magic in the air today.
Name: Foo Guo Zhong Melvyn
Age: 19+
Affiliations: MSHS (Pri), Rosyth, RI, RJC, SFX (LoG)
Bday: 14th Nov
Email: mel_protoss@hotmail.com
lolz i know it's really strange that i suddenly blog so many at one go. but yea i'm kinda like in my emo-hi-lo instead of the passive straight line thingie.
but yea today at cat class, i think i made a difference. as in ok, i probably have been making a difference with just my presence alone. but yea this time felt... dono think what i shared left an impact.
it was kind of a godsend moreover... or should i say God-send. just last night i was like in a total turmoil i felt sooo frustrated and irritated and confused. and lolz think i felt quite desperate. desperate enough to pray for help. and then today for cat class, we went to the anthony's house. for the closing prayer, we went to a small room upstairs - the same room that anthony invited us to share our prayers when we were sec 3. that same symbolic room. and again (kinda expected it already due to the deja-vu-ness of the situation here), he asked us to share our prayers. perhaps it was the atmosphere, ok not perhaps... it was definitely the atmosphere. but yea people started sharing prayers. i knew deep inside that i was probably being asked to share also... moreover with a stronger commitment of being a youth helper. and i was just helplessly wondering how to share something so. intricate. and complex. how can i put it all into words. lolz but i ended up saying a prayer anyway, sharing that i had a trying week "which would take too long to share".
i thought that'd be the end of it. so much for that. but after e prayer was over, anthony prompted me to share what i said "would take too long". and so i just talked a bit about what i've been feeling, sharing some past experiences. stuff like the band outing, and the gep reunion. and yea in that sharing i think i reached past their usual uncaring selves. i think i showed that i was more like them than they thought and i think... yea i just thought that somehow, somewhere, though i don't really know how and what, i made a difference :)
that knowledge didn't come with pride, happiness, or... yea i think pride would be what i thought i would have felt. but instead, all i got was a sense of peace. an inner calm to cool my seething turmoil. something that lifted me out of the well i was drowning in.
lolz reading the post to myself... it seems so fictional and overhyped. but it's not.
after cat class, we stayed for lunch and hung around, talking, mixing around. and :) i'm so happy for this time spent together. there's magic in the air today.